Thank you random stranger!

I will admit- with my second who for purposes of this blog will be called Angel Baby (even though this is not always an accurate characterization but if I believe it maybe it will become true) I sometimes get a little overwhelmed. Angel Baby is a true second child and a boy to boot.  Which means he is incredibly strong willed, does not listen the way my first did, but at the same time has a personality that everyone loves.  I often feel that when I have both kids in tow I look that "that mom"- you know the ones I am talking about- that look strung out and you just hope to yourself that you never look that her.  She looks like she has no idea what she is doing and her kids are just running the show.  For instance, this morning I took both kids to Kohls and it was appropriate that I had on workout clothes because by the end of the trip I was drenched in sweat.  This older lady just shook her head at me as Angel Baby was screaming to press the buttons at check out and I just wanted to yell- "what are you looking at- do you remember what it feels like to have a 22 month old and 3 year!!!!!"  She probably could have been written about in my last post titled "Stupid People."  However, a little while later, a perfect stranger surprised me and made my day- read on.

On Fridays, my three year old who we shall call Princess takes gymnastics.  As a working mom whose only day to stay home besides the weekend is friday I try to overcompensate and make sure we always do something fun on that day to make up for the 4 I am not there.  I really should be running errands but I just can't do that to my children on our one day together.  So I enrolled both in gymnastics- Princess goes by herself and Angel Baby and I are in the mommy and me class.  Well lets just say Angel Baby is not very into the mommy and me class- he does not want to do what our class is doing, he tries to join other classes and basically I spend the entire hour chasing him down and trying to keep him from running into the bathrooms.  At gymnastics, there is a viewing area for the parents to sit who do not have to be in the gym with their little ones- I often feel like the entire viewing area is staring at me and Angel Baby with either pity or confusion and wondering what the hell I am thinking.  But today, when I was about to just start crying because I had to take Angel Baby outside AGAIN to tell him to listen to his teacher or he could not go back in- a wonderful stranger walked by me and said- "you are a good mom"  It was like God was speaking to me telling me I am doing my best and to not give up and boy did I need that.  Angel Baby did not all of a sudden become the perfect student but he did participate and we survived and for once I did not feel like someone was about to call child protective services on me- I consider that a win!

Stupid People

This post is not going to be nice.  You will find as you stay tuned to this blog that by Thursday afternoons I have had it.  For four days, I have been dealing with clients and other lawyers and unfortunately in my line of work that means my phone conversations and interactions end up being quite frustrating!  I will share some highlights - a client who for weeks has been asking me to file his divorce papers, calling everyday to see if his wife had been served, emailing constantly, telling me way to much information about the affair his wife was having (WAY TOO MUCH), had her served, the next day he calls to ask me to file a Dismissal- they are working it out.  Don't get me wrong I am happy they are going to work on their marriage but really- did you have to email me all weekend????

Next, a DHS worker who basically tells me my client is just being dramatic because they are upset that their child has had lice the entire time in the foster care system (almost a year) because all kids get lice at some point- um NO!!!!

The client who for the 20th time asks what the status of his case even though he has an outstanding bill of $6000 and  have told him repeatedly that nothing will be done until he pays- yet he still looks at me dumb founded- every time.

Or the opposing counsel who calls me "little lady" or "darling" or says I make his blood pressure rise because I argue with him- really?  can you believe men still treat professionals this way- ugh.

I will admit this- I do not actually like be a lawyer most days- there are moments here and there but I should have known that when I did not like most people in law school I would not like alot of my fellow attorneys or the practice of law.  Now I do like my job- meaning I like my coworkers, I like the arrangement (4 days a week) and I like the paycheck.  But overall there is alot I would rather be doing and I dream of my future career change- maybe a counselor, physician assistant, hair dresser- who knows, but it is fun to dream, right?

Truth be told most days I can maintain a positive attitude because if not being happy with my career choice is my biggest cross to bear I am pretty darn lucky.  I repeat to myself "You do what you have to do so that you can do what you want to do"  and I try and plan vacations, shopping trips, buy toys for my kids etc to have things to look forward to remind me why I do this.  But by Thursdays, when I have been away from my kids for four days straight and dealt with one too many "stupid" people- I tend to loose that positive attitude.  So here is to Thursdays - my most frustrating yet best day of the week because now I leave work and am a mom only for 3 days straight!

Little Moments

My post today was going to be all about my lack of sleep since children; however, I had the most uplifting morning so I thought I should capitalize on this positive energy I am feeling and share as we all know the lack of sleep situation is not changing anytime soon and rest assured there will be post about such sleep issues in the future.

Why was my morning so wonderful you ask?  For no particular reason it just was.  It was one of those rare mornings when everything seemed to be smiling at me- I actually slept well (refer to above re: sleep issues), my children both woke up happy, I had one of those beautiful little moments right before my babysitter got there where both kids were sitting on my lap, cuddling with me while we watched blues clues and I just thought to myself life does not get better than this; I went to file stuff at Court and everyone I encountered smiled at me- maybe it was because of my bright pink shirt and cute scarf, maybe I had something on my face, maybe my butt looks really good in these pants (I like to believe the last is true) but for whatever reason everyone seemed happy and that feeling is just contagious; the weather is gorgeous; and all in all I have everything I could ever dream of.  So for this morning I am very content.

Now have no fear new readers- I will not always be spewing rainbows like I am this morning.  But I feel as overworked mommies we need to take advantage of these little moments where we feel like things are going our way and we are doing a good job.  There are still plenty of things I need to work on- ie I did not get up to do the elliptical this morning so my butt is still way to big- but for this morning instead of feeling guilty (which is a constant in any mother's life) I am going to feel blessed that I have a husband who loves me even with my dimples (and I am not talking about the cute kind my kids have!)

So here is to hoping you all have a positive day - and if not, that you can remember back to your last little moment and that will carry you through!

Welcome to my Crazy Life

This quote (thank you pinterest) kind of sums up how I feel on most days and what this blog will be about- forgiving myself for not doing it all perfectly and being pretty sure on most days I am doing it wrong.  Although that sounds depressing I am confident it will be both entertaining and inspirational.  Because if I am nothing else, I know I can provide a good laugh!  Hope you read it and send others to read it and that you can learn from my experiences even if you are only learning what not to do!